Currently, I’m might be single over 5 years or might more. I’ve talked much on Stupid and Blessed about how I loved one girl, for over couple year maybe. She wasn’t really a girl you could find easily, she may not pretty much as other girl, but other girl are not her.

I’ve tried to had relationship with other girl, but it isn’t feel right, I don’t feel like I was. I don’t want to be somebody else, we might change, but inside we still the same. I already hit the do not want in relationship mood, but it is just force me to fall in love, again, with the same person I already loved to.

This time is different, she was more passionate to hang out with me, she likely to initiate the conversation, not much, but more initiative more than ever. She is the only reason I could stop smoking cigarettes, I’m sorry for everyone I tell that I stop smoking because too lazy to go outdoor while in the office, well it is, but before that I’m already wanted to stop smoking. She was also the one who could remind me to stop when drinking alcohol, even though she was never there when I’m drinking, but everytime I do, it reminded me of her telling me to stop drinking, it is hard because of the work would have me drinking with clients and the bosses.

I know she’s still childish, but one day she would be truly a woman, just for information, she is not underage. Well what do I like of her? everything, she just perfect ideal of my bias. I had a simple wish, I want to hangout together with her again, but alone, I wanted to make the confession, I just wanted to let her know my feelings, I don’t care if it is unrequited, even though I wanted to make her to be my girl, and the only one.

If she reading this, I just want to say sorry if I don’t had time with you all this time, I wanted to spend more time just be with you. Even though I was said the simple wish, it is not the ultimate wish, my ultimate wish is to be with you till death apart.